I might be taking some time off from blogging.
My elderly uncle is very sick. I must be strong and calm. My family is strong and I must be too. But it's hard for me. I worry a lot. Worrying is not helping anyone at all. I need to focus my thoughts into something more positive. I'm like in a depression now. Its quite sudden to see him like that. He used to be so active and he loves and cares for me so much. My worrying has almost crippled me, frozen me with fear. Can'e eat or sleep. It's a horrible feeling.
My family is strong. They have excepted that he is old, everyone grows old and these things happen. It's part of life.
I know no one wants to see like that especially my uncle. My family seeing me like this is adding onto their problems. I know I must be strong, I'm an adult now. I know I need to break out of it. But knowing and acting it out are two very different things. I am trying so hard but when I think about it, I suddenly feel so sad and frozen.
He'll be like this for sometime, months or even years. I can't afford to be in depression for that long. I'll be putting my family through a nightmare. I need to snap out of it. They say it's because I had a comfortable life, no hardships growing up. That's why I can't handle this. Maybe they are right. It doesn't matter, I need to be strong now, for myself and my family. Continue doing the things I always do. But it's so hard. I must be strong.